Cant sleep

So here I am not able to sleep... again. I have so many things going on through my head. Merg....I have not been on here for awhile, so I will catch you all up real quick. I moved out of my moms to a house with Denita and Susan. Duane our landlord decided to move back in and we all gave notice. then he let this felon stay the night and she stole all my things out of my wallet: license, sscards, debits cards, check book, my new camera, and gift cards!! We found out 2 days later we were approved for the apartment we wanted, so we moved out that following weekend. I packed the whole house in two days and was blessed with many great people who helped us on such short notice! So now Denita, and I have moved into a apartment with Anya. Since it has been the holidays however, I have been the only one here. Anya was sick and just got out of the hospital so she will me joining me soon, and Denita comes home from Bend on Thursday. I am excited to have them home. And tomorrow (well today) BETH is in town!!! She will be having her get together at our new place. And staying the night which makes me happy! I also have quit my job at the YMCA. I worked there 1 year and a few months. It was good. I made some good friends, but felt it was my time to go. I will some of the people there very much and the kids I will cry to leave....but I am starting this year off fresh and new. Starting new and alive. This past year has been pretty much the hardest year of my life, and trust me I have been through a lot in the past. Do you ever just lay on your bed in the dark listening to your music on shuffle and random songs come on.....and for each song that comes on your whole mood changes. Your body feels different for each song...tense for a hard beat song, soft and relaxed for a slow song, exhausted from sad songs....do you know what I mean? That is how I feel right now. I sat here starting out listening to Taylor Swift feeling happy and giddy, then came on Green Day and I felt angry thinking about Paul and what hes put us through. To Britney who depending on the song makes me feel like a teenager again or giddy infatuated. To some random screamo song my brother has tricked me into putting on my Ipod. then I just get scared and jump out of my skin and change the song. lol This is what happens when I cant sleep...I start to babble on. But when I lay down to sleep I get anxious and cant sleep from all my thoughts. Can I just say that I am having a VERY hard time being patient and waiting. Patients sorry to say is NOT one of my many virtues. I lay there and wonder the whole time. Its all I can think about at night, and half the time 1st thing I think about when I wake up. I dont know what I should do...but wait, patiently...MERG
Ok well I think I am going to attempt to fall asleep again. Beth will be here in like 4 1/2 hours. See a lot of you later....to my dreams I go